BEING AWAY..

I am currently residing in Legend Resort Cherating.. cant't stop thinking bout him.

Oman demam panas since Friday. It was 39 degrees. I took urgent leave immediately. Tukar job jadi doctor pulak. I was hoping that he would recover very fast.

Yesterday's morning, when we woke up in the morning, muka oman mcm bengkak-bengkak tapi it was not that obvious. Oman meragam-ragam, buat itu ini semua x kena. Kalau makan, he would only welcome liquid into his mouth, yang solid bagai, semua sekian terima kasih. Siap buat-buat muka lagi. Punyala momma buat special presentation carrot bentuk stars tau letak atas porridge. Dia buat dek je.

Towards noon, Oman's fever dah mild but we noticed the appearance of red dots on his body, face, and back of his ears. Oman mmg x selesa with that condition. He kept rubbing his skin. He would cry whenever i dissapearred from his eyes. Menyusu jangan cakaplah, memang he totally refused bottle. The pattern of that redish pinkish rashes nampak macam 'campak' so we went to visit a doctor at TTDI. Owh how i wished yesterday was not sunday so that i could bring him se his paed. His 2nd doctor's clinic pun close on Sunday. huhu

We have been told that it's still early to tell if Oman kene measles or not. Sometimes, high fever and medication reaction could cause rashes too. Doc gave Oman calamine cream. He advised me to keep monitor Oman for few days.

Last night, Oman sangat resah. I attended him all night long til this morning. When he fall asleep, i slowly packed for my working trip where i am now. Oman woke up every half and hour and cried. It's killing me deeply. How i feel so damn guity. At his condition that he needs her mother to be with him so much, i have to leave.. He kept hugging me tight until he slept with his head on my shoulder.

Maafkan momma, Oman..

When i left him this morning, his rashes dah makin menebal. Memang sahlah measles. Pity my baby. Owh! I really can't wait for tomorrow. Nak balik. Mujurlah this trip 2 days 1 night only. Oman bertahan yer sayang...

Me and hubby dah plan nak cuti on Wed, nak bawa Oman jumpa Doc Maziah. Paling penting, can be with him 24 hours!!!! Pesakit kami paling special :)

A testimonial to the most special person,
How on earth i'm so lucky that i have somene who is always being so supportive to me. He deals positively and sportingly with my mobility. He is my hubby, who also my best buddy on earth, my everything. Everytime i told him about my next trip, dia x pernah merungut. Cuma dia join club 'Suami2 selalu ditinggal isteri' je dengan kawan-kawan yang senasib dengan dia. Ade tau club tu. ;p

Several times, i asked him about his true feeling towards my working obligation, He keeps telling me to focus and praying that everything will be fine and smooth. Thank you so much, Kidd for having such the greatest heart.

"Ya Tuhan, sekiranya memang inilah yang telah ditentukan padaku. Maka dekatkanlah ia dengan hatiku. Permudahkanlah segalanya. Tapi sekiranya tidak, jauhkanlah ia... berikanlah petunjuk. Agak ku dapat mencari sesuatu yang lebih baik.. yang telah Engkau tentukan.. Aamin."