The actual planned was that only abah (my fil) going to send me to LCCT. Oman would be put under distraction so that he would not aware that i was actually leaving.
But this boy had seen me packing my luggage so he kept repeating this to me, "Oman nak ikut Momma naik aeroplane". Slowly i told him, "Oman xboleh ikut. Momma work. Oman tinggal dengan Nanny, Papa, Dadda, ok?". He didn't care. Owh, before this, he did follow me two times straight. For him, it meant to be, EVERYTIME. Yeah, it's gonna be tough.
As abah helped to carry my luggage to the car, Oman hugged my knee tightly. His nanny tried to seduce him with chocolate but it didn't work. How pity. Then Nanny decided to bring him along.
On the way, i tried to tell him again that this time I'd go alone. He refused to hear that and asked for sweets instead. I told him I'd buy for him when we reached the airport.
Upon reaching, we're holding hands. He didn't want to let it go. Like he knew I was lying to him. The car stopped right in front the International Departure hall, mama quickly went out and opened the back door. She grabbed Oman. "Okay, kita beli gula2 k". I convinced Oman to go and told him I'd be right there when he got back. He chose to believe me.
Mama waved, said bye bye and asked me to take care in a very low voice. Then she brought Oman away. I could still hear Oman asked for me until they disappeared from my eyes.
I said Good bye to abah and brought myself inside the building. I tried to search for my colleagues if they had arrived.
Suddenly, i saw Oman with his Nanny walking towards the place where abah waited for them. In his hands, i saw Milo and Ribena sweets. But his eyes, were looking everywhere as he searched for something. He knew he let me lied.
I hid myself behind the wall.
God it was hard. Really-really hard..........
I cried in the washroom.
I didn't kiss him and say Good Bye.
But i just couldn't to help to see him crying and make my in laws worried if he wouldn't calm down. So i have to.
It works that way. He's doing fine after that until now. Keep asking for me but no cries. He's a good boy.
.............(long pause)
Momma miss you too much.
;'(
xoxo,
-mommaholicSuri-
-mommaholicSuri-
now i knew mcm mana perasaan seorang ibu bila berjauhan dgn anak=.='
ReplyDeleteowh... nurill... sedihnya... tak sanggup nak byangkan that moment... tp, terbayang jugak... *crying too*.....
ReplyDeletesyg...sedihnyer baca post u..
ReplyDeletetak pernah i ser-serius nih baca post u tau.
tapi kantoi gak tang last tuh...
tgk muke oman cmtuh rasa nak gelak pon ade..
hensem la oman ni...!
take care yer darling.
dont be sedih2, hes gonna be ok, k~
sedihnye.. :( tapi Oman memang good boy. slowly dia akan tahu yang Nuurill tinggalkan dia sebab kerja, furthermore stay ngan grandparents.lucky you! :)
ReplyDeleteoh!, nak cerita nih. yesterday, ade accident di roundabout yg Nuurill accident that day. I think same case like yours..both are lady drives.
sedihnye baca no worry and be tough ok ,saya anak gi sekolah nangis pun dah x tahan, padahal 2-3jam aja...cpz 24hrs dgn umminya mcm long2 journey mcm nurill...mmg cabaran yg sgtt besar...tapi insyallah anak yg x berkepit sgt dgn ibu ni akan lebih independent
ReplyDeletei wanna cry toooooo...tgk harraz muka monyot 5 min i pi kedai pun rasa sedey..ni plak omannnn lama jauh ngan momma..nurill baper arikat sana??
ReplyDeletesedihnya this entry. everytime tau je nuuril nak kena away from oman mesti cd pun terasa sedih juga. huhu.
ReplyDeletelast 2 weeks cd kena pege pasir gudang. i requested for day trip. amik first flight than balik last flight. memang meeting cd cramp betul. cd cakap kat boss tak boleh tinggal hadif. hadif demam time tu. huhu. habis la KPI cd this ye. melawan boss. but i just not that strong as u are dear.
bile baca camni baru la brsyukur jadi housewife, though i've never experienced anything like this before, my anak2 always ade mama die around, still akak paham sgt2 ape nuurill rase.. i'm not as strong as u are definitely, thats why la i mmg kena jadi housewife ngeh ngeh ngeh..
ReplyDeleteape pun, be strong ok.. fokus on your work... it helps a lot i guess bile anak kite x nangis kan.. x pe, at least he's in a good hands :)
Alahai sedihnya n3 ni..sian Oman, sian jgk kt Nuurill. Be strong, k? dh tk lme lg kn kt Krabi tu? tk care dear! i'm sure Oman misses u so much like u do but he will be fine with ur family. :)
ReplyDeleteCpow dear:
ReplyDeleteyes my dear, that feeling will never be separated no matter how strong the mother was. Indahkan? :)
Fidza dear:
That time mmg sedih. Like kita nampak dia depan mata, nak sangat-sangat peluk cium dia, tapi x boleh. Apetah lagi anak sendiri. Uish..
Darling Mel:
ReplyDeleteU memang tau cemana nak menceriakan i kan?. haha. Malam i created that entry mmg malam sentimental sikit you. Tapi bila i baca komen you ni terus tergelak okeh! hahaha.
Tq dear. Love you!!
Dear ibuhana:
Alhamdulillah sebab in laws Nuurill dekat. Kadang-kadang kalau time Nuurill abroad tu cuti sekolah, parents Nuurill pulak yang handle Oman. Xde apa yang lebih syukur bila i see Oman in good hands while i'm not around. Amin. :)
Ouch! Accident kat roundabout tu lagi? Kira selalu jugakla kat situ. Sigh. Mmg kene lebih berhati-hati kan, tempat tu dangerous and kereta semua laju. Ade yang keluar dari simpang roundabout tu without any break pun. Sabar jelah.
Zah:
ReplyDeleteAmin. Nuurill memang selesa kalau Oman cepat berdikari. Nanny Oman bekerja jugak so, Oman day time is taken care by the maid. hopefully everything's fine. Amin.
Jadi ibu mmg dah nature kalau anak nangis esp sebab kene tinggal uish.. x tahan. Tapi, at the same time kita jadi kuat sebab demi kebaikan anak-anak kan. :)
Zura dear:
Nuurill kat sini 5 day 4 nights. Esok (Saturday) Nuurill sampai KL. X sabar sungguh nak gomol Oman. hihi. Kiss to Harraz dear.
Che' Dee:
ReplyDeleteSelagi kita mampu untuk x berpisah lama dengan anak, memang kita akan buat. Kalaula Nuurill banyak duit, hari2 Nuurill request pergi balik ke Krabi ni. hihi.
Che' Dee pun kuat jugak. Actually we will never know until kita hadapi sendiri. It's a part of life kan. Let say one day Che' Dee kene hadapinya jugak, Insya Allah, Che' Dee boleh (walaupun nangis tetiap malam rindu). hihi.
K.Nana:
ReplyDeleteYes kak Nana dear, Nuurill saaaangat relief bila dengar Oman x nangis. Phew. So, Nuurill pun boleh fokus kat sini.
Anak-anak K.Nana lucky sebab mother dia always around. Jadi housewife pun ada cabaran dia sendiri kan? So, whatever destined to us, let's live the live. Insya Allah. :)
Izu:
ReplyDeleteLepas Nuurill wrote this entry, Nuurill x nangis dah. Further bila dengar Oman pun okay kat sana, Nuurill memang dah ok. Of course rindu tu takkan hilang punya, but at least Nuurill can concentrate to my obligation here.
Insya Allah, moga Nuurill berjaya balance and success in family and career. Amin. :)
Kiss to the princesses ok. Gambar2 u all kat sana sangat best!! bilala diorang nak hantar Nuurill gi Europe ni. hihi
babe..sebak gile after read ur entry...
ReplyDeletemy 2nd day at hosp,baby admitted for phototherapy..I miss Adam so much...
1st time lama tak jumpa Adam..nk nangis dah...
Nuurill..kagum!u such a strong momma!!salute ;)
Beb............
ReplyDeleteI nanges tak berenti baca this entry. tetiba hati I lembik mcm donut......
owhh dear...thats not easy... - Mrs Ras
ReplyDeleteNadia:
ReplyDeleteSalute to all mommies in the world!!
Masing-masing ada dugaan sendiri kan. We all have gone through such tough stages (bersalin sangat tough) and masing-masing menghadapinya tanpa menyesal. Alhamdulillah.
I'm sure by this time you dah meet Adam and melepas rindu. :)
Wawa:
Masa i tulis entry tu pun i menangis x berenti babe. Gi meeting esok mata bengkak. Heeee. Ape nak buat kan. Xboleh nak control that feeling. Bila dah jadi a mother baru tau cemana rasanya.
myRAS:
yes, it's not. But to live a life, kene hadapinya jugak kan. That makes us live stronger, Amin.