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The actual planned was that only abah (my fil) going to send me to LCCT. Oman would be put under distraction so that he would not aware that i was actually leaving.
But this boy had seen me packing my luggage so he kept repeating this to me, "Oman nak ikut Momma naik aeroplane". Slowly i told him, "Oman xboleh ikut. Momma work. Oman tinggal dengan Nanny, Papa, Dadda, ok?". He didn't care. Owh, before this, he did follow me two times straight. For him, it meant to be, EVERYTIME. Yeah, it's gonna be tough.
As abah helped to carry my luggage to the car, Oman hugged my knee tightly. His nanny tried to seduce him with chocolate but it didn't work. How pity. Then Nanny decided to bring him along.
On the way, i tried to tell him again that this time I'd go alone. He refused to hear that and asked for sweets instead. I told him I'd buy for him when we reached the airport.
Upon reaching, we're holding hands. He didn't want to let it go. Like he knew I was lying to him. The car stopped right in front the International Departure hall, mama quickly went out and opened the back door. She grabbed Oman. "Okay, kita beli gula2 k". I convinced Oman to go and told him I'd be right there when he got back. He chose to believe me.
Mama waved, said bye bye and asked me to take care in a very low voice. Then she brought Oman away. I could still hear Oman asked for me until they disappeared from my eyes.
I said Good bye to abah and brought myself inside the building. I tried to search for my colleagues if they had arrived.
Suddenly, i saw Oman with his Nanny walking towards the place where abah waited for them. In his hands, i saw Milo and Ribena sweets. But his eyes, were looking everywhere as he searched for something. He knew he let me lied.
I hid myself behind the wall.
God it was hard. Really-really hard..........
I cried in the washroom.
I didn't kiss him and say Good Bye.
But i just couldn't to help to see him crying and make my in laws worried if he wouldn't calm down. So i have to.
It works that way. He's doing fine after that until now. Keep asking for me but no cries. He's a good boy.
.............(long pause)
Momma miss you too much.
;'(
xoxo,
-mommaholicSuri-