I AM AROUND!!

2 days ago, i received a call from Jakarta that made me half paralyzed. Someone informed that me & my boss were requested to attend a meeting at Bandung on 11 to 12 Feb 2010. I should depart on 10th and coming back on 13th. Oh No!!!!

10 FEBRUARY 2010??
It's my Little Man's day!! I 'm supposed to be with him, right? Maybe for some people it doesn't matter. No! it does for me!It's gonna be his 1st. Mothers, u all know how is the feeling!

13 FEBRUARY 2010??
It's the day we plan for a family gathering to celebrate his birthday. Takkanla all the preparations i have to let my hub, my parents, my in-laws to handle alone kan? Takkanla...

I did ask my boss, "do we still need to go?"
"Can i excuse this time?.. it's my son Birthday on 10th!". (yang ni i tanya dalam hati)
My boss told me that it's an important meeting. it's a 'Maybe'.

Yesterday, we had a conference call with the other party. 1 of the agenda was to discuss about that meeting. I was berdoa all the way that nasib menyebelahi i. Even my hubby, an hour before the con.call, he texted me; "Good news or bad news?". Gosh! i know he's also hoping that his wife would be by his side, together celebrating our son birthday.

Due to short notification, i was informed that management are unable to secure our internal approval, thus unable us to attend the meeting. As a way forward, it is proposed that the meeting to continue via tele-conference. Phew!! Berkat doaku, doa Kidd, Berkat doa Melin and mr H! :)

So here am i today. On my son's birthday. I am around. Alhamdulillah!! :)

Dear my son, Roman Anaqhi,
Happy 12 months, Happy 1 year old!!
Momma is so happy that we could celebrate it together-gether.
I promise you, I'll try hard to be the best momma for you to proud of.
I promise you, I'll improve myself in every aspect, dunia and akhirah, so that you gonna see in front you, the best example to follow.
I promise you, I'll love your dadda forever (eh tetibe :p)

However, If momma fails to be the best,
I want u to know that i'll never stop trying.
and one day, If momma's not around you,
whenever you need me so much, remember,
my pray is always there with you, baby.
Love u too much!!

Today's morning. Playing. :)

Happy 1 year old, Oman Chan! :)

p/s: I know one day i have to face it though. Where i was somewhere, not attending him. His first day at school? his 5th birthday? his graduation? ... i leave it all to the Almighty. He knows best.