44 DAYS REALISM

Semalam was the 44th day of my confinement. The End of it.
Throughout those days, macam-macam yang telah momma lalui, rasai, belajar dan sedari.
Laughs and tears, mix of feelings.

Being a momma is such an awe-inspiring gift, it is the greatest, that i will ask for no more. Ya Tuhan, syukur yang tak terhingga.

BERPANTANG is not really a big deal for me. Apa yang boleh makan, apa yang x boleh makan takla susah sangat. Since, i mmg suka makan vege, seafood and food yang bersoup-soup ni, so, hari-hari makan ikan yang x gatal atau soup dgn sayur sawi x kesah. Ikan masin lagi syiokkk. Enjoy jer. Cuma, the things that kureng sket were that xbleh keluar rumah, xbleh main air (basuh pinggan pun x dibagi), xbleh buat keje kuat sangat (kesian tgk mama ngan nenek xde sape tolong masak). Hehe..orang dah biase activela katekan (konon..)

BERURUT, BERTUNGKU & PAKAI BENGKONG. Earlier days of my confinement, Opah ngah yang urut and pakaikan bengkong. 3 hari berturut-turut. Opah Ngah ni dah 90 years old. Memang tabik spring la dia masih lagi boleh mengurut. After that, i learned myself how to wear it. Xla susah sangat sebab the one that i used wasn't like org dolu-dolu yang kene lilit-lilit tuh. Mine yang leh kata senang sket (Mia Binder Thick). And i love to wear it. Selesa. Cuma bila nak wee-wee and poo-poo tu struggle gakla..hahaha. Bertungku pulak, i did every morning after bath. Untuk naikkan peranakkan. Both of bengkung and tungku i bought them at mamadamia.com.

Bengkung and Batu tungku

44 days with Roman Anaqhi, i would say, i have learned mcm-mcm things about mommahood and there are still much much more rooms of skills and cognition coming to be faced and discovered.From breastfeeding to tidokan Oman, change his diaper, bersihkan poop dia, mandikan, pakaikan baju, cuddling him, tepuk-tepuk supaya dia burp afer milk-milk time, jadi jaga after midnight, check temperature make sure ok...dan baaanyak laaagiii. When he cried, i have to check few things; is he hungry?, is he needs a fresh diaper?, is he feels too cold or hot?, is he wants to be held? is he can't take lights, the noise, being passed from hand to hand?, is he doesn't feel good? Kadang-kadang, after all that being checked, i still not be able to figure out what's wrong. Itu paling mencabar, cause to see him crying continuously, sungguhla kesian. Mujurla my hubby, my parents, my parents in law sentiasa membantu dan memberi sokongan. Hubby, eventhough kitorang berjauhan when i spent 4 weeks berpantang at my parents house, dia mesti buat sport check hari-hari, call bagi semangat so that i didn't feel he's far from us. Both parents and in laws pun x putus-putus memberi tunjuk ajar, jaga makan minumku, bantu jaga Oman bila momma needed rest. Owh! sangat terharu, kini ku lebih menyedari betapa pengobanan parents sewaktu membesarkan anak. Terima kasih yang tak terhingga kidd, abahs and mamas, nenek dan opah. I really love my new me, challenging, but full of joy.

OMAN. My little man, momma and dadda buah hati pengarang jantung. Oman ada pusar 3 ok. X noti tapi banyak akal :) He can't be patient when it comes to feeding him. Mulut macam burung lepas tu hek hek..hihi.. Bila ngantuk, Oman selalu confuse yang dia tu lapar ke ngantuk.. last-last dia decide utk nangis kuat-kuat..This time, momma lah yang kelam kabut. Sometimes he cries mcm kene cubit jek. Buat momma takut la tu :). Oman is now dah kerap memberi his real smiles..owhh..cairrrr semua orang. Dah la ade dimple kat right cheek dia, rasa nak gigit je ok :). Favourite Oman ialah mandi. Ya Allah, macam tau-tau je dia nak dimandikan, bila bukak je baju dia, dia senyum lebar.. paling dia suka, when i hold him football style, and masukkan dia dalam bath tub..waaa enjoy x hengat. X nangis langsung :). Little Man bagun pagi-pagi memang awal. Ikut tukbah dia. Seawal 5.30am Oman dah celik biji mata..ajak his momma and dadda sembang-sembang..hihi.

Sepanjang 44 hari berlalu, there're few times momma menangis. The first of course masa Oman lahir. Tu nangis gembira. But the first nangis sedih, when Oman was detected jaundice on his 4 days old. Oman kene letak bawah lampu biru tu semalaman. Momma x sanggup nak pisah dengan Oman walaupun midwife called momma at every feeding time. Oman's jaundice sungguhla lama, more than 30 days...masa Oman readmitted to DSH sebab jaundice naik, pun momma nangis. I was so kesian to see him kene cucuk amik darah, lying bawah lampu tu, huhu. And baru-baru ni Oman kembung perut. Oman's crying continuosly sampai xde suara. Momma buat macam-macam to conform him but he kept crying mcm sakit sangat. Sampai Oman dah penat, Oman tertidur with tears still ada kat pipi dia...Momma cried again. Masa tu i felt like i'm not good enough yet to him. I blamed myself cemana angin boleh masuk dalam perut Oman. Again, hubby was so bijak memainkan peranan sebagai watak penenang. Told me not to panic. Be calm. Huhu, sayang kidd.

Alhamdulillah, Oman's jaundice dah ok and his colic dah getting well. Cepat-cepatla semua angin tu hilang yer sayang. Nanti momma lumur lagi minyak telon kat badan Oman k.

So, now Momma dah boleh active kembali. Alhamdulillah. As to meraikan the end of this I have rewarded my self 3 days of exclusive massage, sauna bath and herbal bath. The last session was pagi tadi. Mmg ade kelassss! The lady who massaged me named Mak Yati. She came to the house and did everything which layanannya to me like i'm a princess. Massage sejam, segala urat purat habis dibetoikannyer. Mandi wap 30 minutes. Peluh x hengat mcm jogging 5 km. Hehe. Mandi herba pun, Mak Yati mandikan..wah wah wah.wangi seluruh badanku..Total RM120 for that kind of services is more than worth!! Kat Kl mane dapat weii that price! I am fully satisfied!!

Finally, TATA to confinement. I did enjoy u. :)

Roman Anaqhi on his 44 days old :)